He called last night
and I awoke at 4 am,
knowing what that call would bring
but still not really knowing…
It had been all too long
since he last called
as I answered
I knew it was the night
all would be over–
closure would come and hearts would heal.
I could all but smell the alcohol on his breath,
as he stumbled his way home
without stumbling over his words
I knew by the way he smiled
through the phone
tears falling from his squinty eye.
We laughed reminiscing
as he called me babe like old times
and apologized for doing so
habit he called it–
habit he hadn’t broken
in the last year and a half apart–
I just let it pass.
He told me he “loved me”
words I had heard
so many times before
so distant from my memory
and that too I let pass.
He told me he missed me
wanting me in his life again
and I knew for the first time
after all these years
we would finally have the relationship
that made us both happy–
we would finally
be friends.
