she catches her reflection
in the mirror
and feels ugly–
she succeeded
in her attempt to change her body
in the mirror
and feels ugly–
she succeeded
in her attempt to change her body
unlike girls around her
who starve themselves
wishing their thighs were smaller–
she wanted
to be less attractive
who starve themselves
wishing their thighs were smaller–
she wanted
to be less attractive
she wanted
the second glances
to stop
the comments
of how cute her shape was
to go away
she wanted
to blend in–
not be seen
watched
touched
she wanted
to forget
what it felt like
to have her skin caressed
she wanted
to make sure
it never happened again
so she changed the way she looked
she wanted
never again
to hear
it was dangerous to be around her
it was her fault
because of how she looked
she wanted
not to be wanted
for the first time in her life
she wanted to be ugly–
and she succeeded
