I’m not afraid of you.
February 1, 2008 by Gertrude
you are not beautiful
to me anymore
your bones no longer make mine
yearn to show
I see awkwardness
not confidence
in your eyes
and your body
looks incomplete
without his next to you
your words do not intimidate me
no longer inspiring
able to push
with bully like tendencies
to face my fears
while you plot and scheme
manipulating us like puppets
wrapped between your insecure fingers
envy is not a word
I would give to your love
no matter how you see it
as better than ours
his lies of the past
differ than what was
to ease your neurosis
I was never the enemy
or even an active piece
in the trouble between you
without my allowing
you can not bring me back
to a place I never wanted to return
you can have your life
with co-dependence
laced in those awful shoes
you wear ever time
you try to be someone
you are not.
