Posted in Poetry, tagged Hurt, Poetry on February 12, 2008 | No Comments »
I think it’s time for the tears to come.
I eat
sleep
laugh
all feeling from my life
sitting idle in a world incomplete
refusing to let lonliness in
for fear it will lead to wants
my insecurities
won’t let me meet
I am too young
to throw in the towel
but I hate [...]
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Posted in Poetry, tagged betrayal, Hurt, Leaving, Poetry, Rage on January 18, 2008 | No Comments »
I left him.
but not before he could leave me–
three years ago
and still
not one week ago today
she was back in my life…
I can’t remember a time
so much anger filled my body
fingertip corks
removed
leaving rage to flow
like wine
red red wine
nausea tears through me
imagined in my mind
thoughts only people [...]
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Posted in Starts, tagged Abortion, Hurt, insecurity, Starts on January 9, 2008 | No Comments »
What does it really matter if I smile all the time?
I feel insecurity bubbling in the silence.
I know better than to swim in her waters– not enough reward for the risk.
She closed her eyes hoping they wouldn’t open come morning…
The last bottle falied to numb anything… Gnarly Dudes might pack a punch strong enough to [...]
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Posted in Poetry, tagged friendship, Hurt, Poetry on December 1, 2007 | No Comments »
So damned
determined
going through life alone in her eyes
with other’s love
drowning in her wake
blindly bruising hearts
passing through strangers
and over looking loved ones
keeping them in the dark
causing pain in her omissions
they try so hard to crack her shell
to inch their way in
seeping through broken skin
permeating her icy interior
behind glass eyes
and her distracting smile…
Your words broke me today
thank [...]
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there is no hatred here
only hurt
my misconception of what was taking place
again in the dark
alone in my beliefs
wondering
but mostly knowing
that although I have been cut off
again
you still search me out…
it is unfair
yet just in your eyes
a blessing in disguise
that makes me so incredibly angry
don’t leave me a last note…
it takes away
from the sudden shut out
you [...]
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Posted in Poetry, tagged Hurt, Poetry on November 11, 2007 | No Comments »
Reality morphed as if transcending time
I sat before him
unable to look to his eyes
purging injure
releasing rage into tears
letting strangers take what he could never
spitting blame at the mask he wears
wishing for retribution
retaliation
gratification
Say it…
say what he never would…
“I hate you!”
Thank you.
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Posted in Poetry, Starts, tagged Abortion, Carl, Hurt, Poetry on November 7, 2007 | No Comments »
searching for some unknown aspect of self reflected in the other
answers to our questions of identity
individually alone, but together lonely
——————————————————-
Someday she’ll find you, like I found you
but you’ll be ready
and you will, at last,
have everything you ever dreamt of
all in your life without me…
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November 4th, 12:05am
praying for time to pass
February, nine months earlier
fighting, you’re not [...]
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Posted in Poetry, tagged Hurt, Poetry on October 16, 2007 | No Comments »
sitting on jagged steps
towering over her past
afraid of falling
through the cracks
stained glass girl
book in hand
filled with made up memories
moments not remembered
faces never seen
recognized
trying to help through hurting
knowing no other way
broken by what never was
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Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Anger, Hurt on October 5, 2007 | No Comments »
I hate that I don’t know what to say and I don’t know how to say it.
I hate that I am not over this and that I still think every day of you and him.
I hate that I stick out my stomach and gaze at the reflection in the mirror of the girl who knew [...]
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Posted in Poetry, tagged Hurt, Poetry on September 13, 2007 | No Comments »
I wish I could cry away the sting
I feel within
when I think of you.
I wish I could rid myself
of every last drop
of sentiment wasted.
I wish I could act
like it didn’t bother me
that I am alone
and you are with her.
But I can’t…
I do not wish bad things,
but I am not sure I am a big enough [...]
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