Posted in Poetry, tagged Jesse, Poetry on February 21, 2008 | 1 Comment »
It doesn’t bother me…
anymore.
though you used to be my only audience,
others have found comfort in my words
I reread them
reidentify feelings
I hate…
death,
loss,
bitterness,
humiliation,
suicide…
you can keep reading…
I know when you have been here
the words change
when I am forced to imagine them
through your eyes.
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Posted in Poetry, tagged Hurt, Poetry on February 12, 2008 | No Comments »
I think it’s time for the tears to come.
I eat
sleep
laugh
all feeling from my life
sitting idle in a world incomplete
refusing to let lonliness in
for fear it will lead to wants
my insecurities
won’t let me meet
I am too young
to throw in the towel
but I hate [...]
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Posted in Poetry, Starts, tagged Life, Poetry on January 30, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I count seven heads
eyes closed
mouths gaping
one drowning in Parkinson’s
cruelty
saliva spewing over lower lip
the doctors say little
one only with his stare
tremors control his body
his eyes sing in sadness
—————————————————–
if a lesser heart beat beneath my chest
the observations my eyes declare
would surely take my sanity
——————————————
Doom
if there are no do-overs in life
no immunity codes
to help me pass through [...]
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Posted in Poetry, tagged betrayal, Hurt, Leaving, Poetry, Rage on January 18, 2008 | No Comments »
I left him.
but not before he could leave me–
three years ago
and still
not one week ago today
she was back in my life…
I can’t remember a time
so much anger filled my body
fingertip corks
removed
leaving rage to flow
like wine
red red wine
nausea tears through me
imagined in my mind
thoughts only people [...]
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Posted in Poetry, tagged friendship, Leaving, Poetry on December 1, 2007 | 2 Comments »
She almost died once.
Joked on the plane
to the nervous man next to her…
“Don’t worry, I’ve already had my near death experience.”
I watched her laying there
determined to wiggle her toes
helped her shower
laughed with her
“nothing over five pounds!”
then flew halfway across the world
fleeing from my own insecurities
and left her…
alone.
It [...]
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Posted in Poetry, tagged friendship, Hurt, Poetry on December 1, 2007 | No Comments »
So damned
determined
going through life alone in her eyes
with other’s love
drowning in her wake
blindly bruising hearts
passing through strangers
and over looking loved ones
keeping them in the dark
causing pain in her omissions
they try so hard to crack her shell
to inch their way in
seeping through broken skin
permeating her icy interior
behind glass eyes
and her distracting smile…
Your words broke me today
thank [...]
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there is no hatred here
only hurt
my misconception of what was taking place
again in the dark
alone in my beliefs
wondering
but mostly knowing
that although I have been cut off
again
you still search me out…
it is unfair
yet just in your eyes
a blessing in disguise
that makes me so incredibly angry
don’t leave me a last note…
it takes away
from the sudden shut out
you [...]
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Posted in Poetry, tagged betrayal, Poetry on November 21, 2007 | No Comments »
Trying so hard
to understand
but all I can think to say…
Fuck You.
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Posted in Poetry, tagged Anorexia, insecurity, jealousy, Poetry on November 14, 2007 | 1 Comment »
I fight nausea
like her bones fight
to stay within their skeletal cage
nothing but skin is left to hold them back
it is so wrong to want like this…
I hate you jealousy.
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Posted in Poetry, tagged Abortion, Poetry on November 12, 2007 | No Comments »
I laid him to rest today.
Not knowing where to go from here…
Is it still ok to grieve?
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